THE TRUTH ABOUT BRIAN PEAD - INDEX

‘Clearout Day’, 84

‘policeman’s register’, 312

“TeenSexForCash”, 44

“TeensForCash”, 44

“TeenSlutsforOldMen”, 44

AA Mirsons, 202, 288, 318, 319, 342, 356, 405, 432, 469

Aberdeen, 44, 45

Aberdeen Royal Infirmary, the, 45

Action for Children, 497, 502

Addenbrooke’s Hospital, 45

Addy, Caroline, 7

Advertising Standards Authority, 285

agent provocateur, 33, 349, 352, 362, 446

Amazon, 243

Anarchy Towers Ltd, 49, 277, 278, 282

Archbold, 107, 108, 179, 184, 186, 187, 188, 271, 290, 291, 295, 333, 339, 354, 375, 401, 437, 438, 440, 458

Armin, Ann, 87

Arnsberg Way, 91

Aromolaran, Banjo, 143

Asante, Marcia, 54

Avery Hill College, 21

AVS, Adult Verification System, 53, 64, 66, 280, 286

Bacon, Geoffrey, 1, 2, 73, 79, 85, 86, 110, 111, 126, 133, 137, 141, 144, 145, 147, 148, 149, 151, 152, 156, 158, 167, 185, 188, 195, 196, 198, 199, 200, 201, 202, 203, 204, 207, 215, 218, 287, 297, 320, 321, 323, 326, 360, 362, 373, 388, 390, 391, 392, 399, 400, 405, 425, 431, 436, 443, 447, 452, 456, 459, 461, 494

Bacon, Roy, 85, 146, 147, 148, 149, 150, 156, 161, 185, 186, 190, 195, 196, 199, 201, 203, 204, 214, 387, 394, 404, 408

BACP, the, 144

Bail Notice, 127

Baker, Sarah, 76

Bamforth, Andrew David, 49, 278

Bar Standards Council, 421

Barber, David, 270

Barnard Medical Practice, the, 161

BDSM Dominatrix, 52

Bealing, Ginni, 22

Bedford, Catherine, 54

Bell, Dominic, 175, 177, 181, 220, 221, 224, 263, 266, 271, 274, 275, 277, 288, 289, 293, 294, 316, 317, 318, 319, 325, 326, 327, 328, 329, 330, 331, 332, 333, 342, 343, 344, 345, 346, 348, 353, 354, 355, 358, 359, 360, 361, 362, 363, 364, 365, 366, 367, 368, 370, 371,372, 373, 374, 376, 378, 379, 380, 381, 383, 384, 385, 386, 387, 388, 389, 390, 391, 392, 393, 394, 396, 397, 398, 400, 401, 402, 404, 405, 410, 411, 413, 415, 416, 420, 421, 426, 427, 429, 431, 432, 433, 434, 435, 436, 443, 447, 451, 452, 453, 454, 455, 456, 459, 460, 462, 465, 466, 467, 469, 477

Belmarsh Prison, 242

Belvoir!, 226

Bentley, Derek, 312

Bernstein, Basil, 189

Bexley Magistrates’ Court, 137, 160, 242

Bexley Police, 90, 221, 240, 269, 288, 327, 369, 394, 397, 425

Bexley Times, the, 217

Bexleyheath Police Station, 91, 101, 125, 231, 240, 335, 406, 472

Bexleyheath School, 270

Bion, Wilfred, 69

Birch, Emily, 79, 125, 242

Birch, Joseph, 11, 79, 87, 88

Birch, Lauren, 79

Birch, Paul, 87, 136, 138, 139

Birch, Sorrel

Pead, Sorrel, 11, 87, 88, 121, 130, 134, 135, 136, 138, 139, 146, 166, 170, 213, 214, 240, 241, 242, 287, 390

Bird, Michael, 1, 2, 7, 89, 243, 247, 393, 396, 420, 421, 430, 454, 457, 461, 468, 489, 501

Birkbeck University, 57

Birmingham Six, the, 98

Birmingham University, 312

Bonner Road, 497

Boston Deep Sea Fisheries, 46, 306

Brain, Pamela, 163, 173, 175, 177, 181, 327, 342

Brito, Mauro, 14

Brokenshire, James MP, 204

Bromley County Court, 270

Brown, Warwick, 274, 275, 276, 277, 391, 392, 430, 436, 452, 453

Burnt Oak Lane, Sidcup, 297

Byers, Judge Charles, 173, 174, 175, 176, 177, 178, 179, 180, 181, 217, 220, 222, 288, 296, 327, 354, 406, 411, 440

CAD report, 271, 376, 420

Callow, John, 57, 109, 110, 140, 160, 165, 178, 235, 237, 318, 328, 358, 393, 396, 404, 405, 415, 420, 425, 433, 457, 465

Cameron, Alexander, 202

Cameron, MP David, 202

Campbell, Jennifer, 226, 288

Campbell, Tony, 450

Carr, Sister Margaret, 48

Catalan, Emma Jesse, 226, 288

Centeio, Jose Mario Pontes, 14

Centre for Professional and Personal Development, 10, 74

Charing Cross police station, 49, 123, 127, 140, 170, 172, 182, 196, 199, 200, 202, 263, 279, 323, 349, 392, 432, 446

Charter Chambers, 266, 316, 318, 319, 469

Chief Justice Lord Lane, 209

Child Sexual Abuse, 69, 70, 71, 356, 393, 407, 410, 421, 422

Chislehurst and Sidcup Grammar School, the, 139

Choi, Chris, 281

Christie, John, 311

CIS Internet, 49, 50, 276, 277, 278, 282, 391

City of Westminster Magistrates’ Court, 149, 150, 204, 212, 295, 370

Cobbold, Claire, 19

Columbo, 100, 369

Community Drug Service South London, 420

Community Drug Service, South London

CDSSL, 89

Companies House, 49, 50, 208, 278, 293

Connexions, 12

Cool Tools, 51, 53, 66, 286

counter-transference, 32, 309

Court of Appeal, 194, 291, 476, 482, 486

Courtney, Dave, 495

Cox, David, 73, 79, 297, 427

CPPD, the, 24, 26, 36, 44, 54, 55, 58, 69, 74, 75, 76, 79, 243, 320, 380, 444

CPS, 177, 178, 180, 182, 188, 213, 222, 288, 290, 295, 296, 321, 323, 326, 339, 340, 363, 364, 388, 400, 401, 402, 404, 405, 406, 408, 411, 419, 425, 426, 428, 429, 430, 432, 435, 441, 445, 465, 470

CPS, the, 109

Craig, Chris, 312

Criminal Attempts Act 1981, 182, 185, 186, 188, 190, 205, 437

Criminal Cases Review Commission, the, 421

Criminal Justice Act 2003, 291

Criminal Procedure and Investigations Act 1996, 291, 294, 316

Criminal Procedure Rules, 179, 180, 222, 290, 293, 294, 296, 316, 317, 323, 341, 364

Criminal Records Bureau, 27, 76, 107

CRIS report, 201, 203, 212, 213, 214, 215, 216, 219, 271, 376

Crown Prosecution, the, 108, 179, 188, 206, 275, 280, 290, 303, 319, 339, 341

Custody Record, 129

Daily Express, the, 330

Data Protection Act 1998, 204

Data Protection Act 2008, 202

Digital Spy, 141

Disclosure, 27, 76, 290, 346, 362, 364, 467, 476, 477

'Donna', 395, 465

Doocey, Matt, 54, 55, 56, 164, 455

Dowler, 'Millie', 273

Duddridge, James MP, 204

Dunipace, Phyllis, 12

E.ON, 5

Edwards, Constable, 231, 233

Elmer, Mark, 56, 69, 167

Employment Appeal Tribunal, 67, 81, 82, 91, 93, 98, 100, 110, 115, 138, 141, 152, 287, 342

Employment Tribunal, 24, 28, 30, 36, 60, 67, 80, 81, 82, 98, 352, 457, 460

Erinaceous Property Company, 276

Ernst and Young, 134

ESDA trace, 312

Essex, Liz, 226, 288

European Convention on Human Rights, 292

Evans, Timothy, 311

Existential counselling approach, 54

Faceparty.com, 26, 27, 30, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 44, 47, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 57, 58, 59, 60, 63, 64, 65, 66, 76, 80, 85, 86, 93, 100, 102, 110, 114, 125, 126, 127, 129, 130, 136, 137, 141, 143, 145, 147, 150, 152, 157, 159, 183, 186, 190, 195, 200, 207, 208, 210, 217, 274, 275, 276, 277, 278, 279, 280, 281, 282, 283, 284, 285, 286, 287, 289, 292, 293, 302, 304, 308, 310, 319, 321, 322, 323, 330, 331, 341, 349, 350, 351, 352, 353, 360, 361, 364, 373, 374, 375, 384, 389, 391, 393, 399, 404, 408, 412, 413, 423, 426, 427, 428, 429, 430, 434, 436, 443, 446, 447, 449, 450, 451, 452, 453, 471, 475, 482, 483, 485

Field, Annabel, 11, 20

Florfield Passage, 54, 69, 144

flying squad, the, 65

Forensic Linguistics Institute, the, 312

Forest of Dean, the, 160, 415

Forster, Timothy, 173, 174, 175, 176, 177, 178, 179, 180, 181, 185, 188, 220, 222, 271, 274, 275, 288, 292, 294, 295, 296, 297, 298, 301, 302, 303, 319, 320, 321, 322, 323, 324, 325, 327, 328, 329, 331, 332, 333, 334, 335, 336, 342, 343, 345, 346, 347, 348, 349, 350, 352,353, 354, 358, 359, 360, 362, 363, 364, 365, 366, 367, 374, 377, 378, 381, 382, 383, 384, 386, 387, 389, 390, 391, 392, 396, 398, 399, 401, 406, 410, 411, 412, 413, 414, 415, 416, 420, 421, 423, 424, 425, 426, 431, 432, 436, 453, 460, 463, 465, 466

Foxberry Garage, 139

Freedom of Information Act 2000, 122, 168, 169, 202, 204, 340, 404

Freeman, William, 1, 2

Friends of Scadbury, 12

from Hillsborough to Lambeth, 243, 319

Fulcher, Richard, 1, 2, 5

General Teaching Council, the, 16

Genesis Housing Group, the, 276

Gestalt counselling approach, 34, 35, 54, 243

Gilhooly, Barry, 9, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20

Glasgow Herald, the, 44

Glass, Amanda, 11

Godfrey, DC Julia, 125, 126, 148, 149, 150, 151, 170, 197, 201, 215, 279, 284, 332, 382, 383, 384, 386, 390, 391, 400, 410, 460

Godfrey, Julia DC, 123, 125, 126, 128, 130, 146, 147, 148, 151, 158, 170, 171, 197, 198, 199, 200, 203, 212, 213, 214, 215, 219, 220, 263, 284, 287, 289, 332, 334, 349, 370, 374, 375, 382, 384, 386, 390, 397, 410, 412, 443, 447, 460, 463

Goodfellow, Steve, 247

Gorleston, 305

gout, 85, 110, 112, 161, 163, 302, 403

Gowing Alan, 4

Gravel Hill Primary School, 87

Gravelwood Close, Chislehurst, 150

Grim Rita, 52

grooming, 15, 17

Group Therapist, 68, 69, 73, 75, 77, 79, 84, 85, 138, 144, 378, 380

Guildford Four, the, 98

Hackney Council, 133, 165

Hackney, Off Centre, 27, 38, 39, 40, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 68, 69, 70, 71, 73, 74, 75, 76, 79, 80, 84, 85, 119, 122, 131, 132, 133, 138, 140, 142, 143, 144, 145, 146, 147, 164, 167, 169, 214, 263, 283, 288, 355, 356, 368, 377, 378, 379, 380, 381, 382, 395, 407, 436, 454

Halfway Street, 241

Hall, Rebecca DC, 146, 150, 199

Halpin, Kate, 269

Hare, Judith, 24

Harpenden, 42, 47, 48, 69, 304, 435

Helical Gearboxes, 139

Hiley, Anya, 12, 22, 97

Hillsborough Disaster, the, 91, 98, 128

Hilton, John, 73, 74, 76, 132, 137, 147, 167, 378, 381

Hinchley Wood Secondary School, the, 35, 46

Hogan, Brian, 206

Holloway, Christine, 115, 137, 163, 342, 343

Holy Redeemer Church, the, 25, 121, 122, 301, 372

Honour, Lee, 122

Horner, Francis, 497

Hornsey, 10, 320

Horseferry Road, 140, 212

Hull Council, 24

Human Rights Act 1998, 151, 172, 370, 371

Ibrahim, Sinem, 165, 342

inchoate offence, 189, 190

Independent Safeguarding Authority, the, 16

Indictment Rules 1971, 296

Inner Space, 12, 60, 79, 310

Inner Temple, 163, 181, 318

Inner Temple Lane, 163

Instant Message, 157

Invenire Press, 243

investigative journalism, 47, 307

Ivy Farm, 4

Jameson, Richard, 170, 171

Jehu, Derek, 57

'Jemima', 38, 39, 69, 74, 79

John Street, London, 316, 469

Joinder, 177, 179, 180, 181, 182, 220, 222, 224, 288, 295, 296, 326, 476

Juries Act 1974, 294

Karp, Marcia, 68

Kaye, Lynne, 44, 74, 320

Kelly, Dr Simon, 264

Kennedy, Ludovic, 312

Kerr, Nicholas, 25, 26, 123, 301, 372, 373

Kibbey, Phineas, 281

Lake, Glenice, 12

Lambeth Council, 22, 24, 28, 60, 67, 81, 83, 102, 111, 114, 127, 136, 144, 152, 169, 217, 243, 287, 342, 352, 373, 382, 384, 424, 443, 454, 498, 500

Lancaster Gate Hotel, the, 68

Leeds University, 206

Lilian Baylis School, 15

LinkedIn, 276

liquidation, 51, 53, 126, 152, 277, 278, 279, 283, 290, 293, 302, 364, 412

List 99, 17

Liverpool Football Club, 35, 123, 143, 376, 377, 424

London Borough of Lambeth, 497

Loraine-Smith, Nicholas QC, 274, 275, 290, 292, 293, 294, 333, 336, 344, 361, 363, 366, 367, 401, 402, 411, 413, 419, 420, 421, 436, 438, 439, 440, 441, 442, 443, 444, 445, 446, 447, 448, 449, 450, 451, 452, 453, 455, 456, 457, 460, 465, 467

Lorelei, the, 102

Lousada, Dr. Olivia, 68

Lowestoft, 44, 45, 46, 210, 270, 305, 307, 466

MacFisheries, 46

MacLagan, Hania, 54

Maddison, Duane, 13

Mager, Alfred, 497

Mandaric, Milan, 295

Mandry, Gemma, 15

Manifold, Clare, 310

Mansfield, Michael QC, 326

Marafun, 156

Marple, Miss, 111, 334

Martin, Mrs Anne, 28, 60, 67, 82, 98

Mathews, Thelma, 119

Mcguire, Bridget, 161

McIntyre, Elizabeth Joy, 27, 76, 84, 94, 95, 97, 102, 107, 110, 114, 115, 116, 137, 163, 173, 174, 274, 298, 299, 302, 324, 325, 328, 330, 332, 333, 334, 335, 336, 337, 338, 340, 342, 346, 393, 402, 411, 422, 423, 428, 443, 444, 445

McIntyre, Kirsty, 270, 393, 414, 430

McKinnon, Gary, 32, 47

McPherson, Delores, 54

Mead, Christine, 27, 379

Meeking, Glen, 25, 26, 94, 111, 140, 161, 162, 298, 299, 301, 425

Meeking, Jenny, 25

Melville Road, 139

Messi, Lionel, 23

Metro, the, 498, 500

Metropolitan Police, the, 77, 133, 136, 138, 139, 165, 228, 244, 369, 376

Miles, Sidney police constable, 312

Mills, Ashleigh, 16

Mirsons, AA, 125

Monaco, 275

Monash University, 276

Moran, Margaret MP, 264, 265

Morgan, Christine, 269

Morgan, Richard DC, 171

MSN, 28, 29, 33, 35, 36, 37, 58, 59, 62, 63, 80, 85, 86, 93, 126, 127, 143, 157, 217, 218, 304, 308, 331, 344, 345, 351, 353, 359, 375, 381, 389, 393, 399, 404, 406, 407, 409, 413, 428, 434, 448, 449, 450, 470, 471, 475, 478, 480, 481, 482

Murray, Colin, 498, 500

Murray, Maryn, 10, 13, 14, 15, 17, 19, 38, 82, 93, 97, 101, 151, 197

Myspace, 178

Napley, Sir David, 317

Narcissistic Personality Disorder, 298

National Children’s Home, the, 48

National Children’s Homes, 210

Neill, MP Bob, 204

Nelson, Guest and Partners, 140, 160, 165, 212, 342

Nelson, Stephen, 212, 342

Neves, Miguel, 14

New Eltham railway station, 82, 118, 123, 269

Noone, Nicola, 27, 74, 76, 132, 133, 137, 146, 164, 167, 169, 170, 214, 263, 270, 287, 355, 356, 365, 367, 377, 378, 380, 391, 454

North Sea, the, 44, 47

Nottingham University, 206

O’Brien, Liam, 264

O’Connor, John, 65, 446

Off Centre, 27, 75, 76, 78, 144, 164, 207, 320, 378, 454

OLCVS, 9, 11, 12, 13, 16, 20, 21, 22, 169, 342

Old Library Centre Virtual School, 9

Oliver, Richard, 68

Olsson, Dr John, 31, 62, 310, 316, 319

Open Learning Centre for Vocational Studies, 19

Oregon, USA, 87

PACE, 146, 148, See Police and Criminal Evidence Act

Paddington Green Police Station, 313

Palmer and Harvey, 299

Party Chat, 282

Passman, Alex, 23, 24, 100, 152, 210

Pead, Jason

Jay Roberts, 88

Pead, Robert, 44

Pead, Shaun, 88

Pentagon, the, 32, 47

PLJ

Personal Learning Journal, 36, 37, 429, 430, 444, 445, 454, 455, 457, 458, 459, 460, 461, 467, 479, 480, 484

PNC. See Police National Computer, the

Police and Criminal Evidence Act 2008, 91, 120, 149, 151, 152, 156

Police National Computer, the, 128, 198, 200, 210, 219, 234, 236, 341

Pool, Susan Ann, 134, 135, 136, 140, 263, 270, 288

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder [PTSD], 330

Pott Row, 4

President Kennedy, 25

Pret, 269, 330, 331, 396, 460

Priory Hospital, Southampton, 264

Prouse, Katie, 115, 137, 174, 176, 181, 266, 274, 275, 330, 332, 333, 346, 400, 402, 403, 406, 444

Psychodrama, 68, 79, 434

Queen Mary’s Hospital, Sidcup, 85, 110, 161, 237

Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?, 46

R. v Campbell (1990), 191

R. v Eagleton (1855), 191

R. v Geddes (1996), 193

R. v Gullefer (1990), 208

R. v Jones (1990), 191, 193

R. v Jones [1990], 191

R. v K. (Note) [2006], 291

R. v Newland [1988], 296

R. v. McFadden, 272

Ramblewood Farm, 4

Rank, Joseph, 501

Rawsthorne, Mandy, 269, 396

Readman, John, 24

Red Poll, 4

Redfearn Centre, the, 13, 16

Redknapp, Harry, 275, 295

restricted code, 94, 189

Reynolds, Alicia, 11

Rillington Place, 311

Roach, Sandra, 14, 15

Robbie, Shaun DC, 333, 349, 350, 351, 352, 353, 354, 358, 359, 360, 361, 362, 363, 364, 365, 387, 389, 398, 399, 404, 405, 408, 413, 430, 443, 445, 446, 447, 450, 451, 452, 470, 479, 483, 484, 485

Robbins, Judge, 220, 222

Rose Bruford College, Sidcup, 181, 226, 297

Roundwood Park JMI School, 48

Royal Courts of Justice, the, 498

Ryan, Natalie, 115, 137, 174, 274, 323, 324, 325, 326, 327, 328, 330, 334, 338, 342, 401, 402, 403, 443, 444

Sadeh, David, 165

Saib, Detective Constable, 91, 96, 101, 102, 106, 107, 125, 174, 176, 181, 288, 331, 358, 365, 366, 367, 406

Salter, Anna, 57

Samuels, Jeffrey, QC, 273

Sandelson, Jenny, 74

Sanderson, Christiane, 57, 407

Sandy, Oregon, USA, 270

Sane, mental health charity, 264

Sapphire Unit, 90, 94, 117, 365

Sargeant, Jane, 91, 92, 93, 94, 95, 97, 99, 100, 102, 103, 106, 107, 125, 331, 365

Saunders, Mr Justice, 264, 265

Scotland Yard, 63, 65, 121, 185, 217, 218, 221, 345, 407, 414, 443, 446

Serpico, Frank, 100

Sexual Offences Act 2003, 107, 108, 128, 182, 184, 185, 205, 303, 339

Shankly, Bill, 35

Shannon, Liam, 54, 69

Shaw, Angela, 224, 263, 266, 288, 318, 319, 325, 342, 355, 370, 381, 386, 392, 405, 408, 410, 432, 452, 456, 469

Shell-Esso, 45

Sherlock Holmes, 326, 369

Sherwood Park Avenue, 123

Shooter’s Hill, 87

Sidcup Adult Education Centre, 269

Sidcup Round Table, 147, 156

Smith, J.C., CBE, QC, LLD, FBA, 206

Smith, Jacqui, 282

Smith, Laurence 'Laurie', 140, 160, 161, 163, 165, 342

Sorrell, Greg, 22

Southwark Crown Court, 180, 190, 212, 217, 264, 270, 275, 276, 288, 289, 295, 296, 335, 385, 392, 494

Spinelli, Ernesto, 32

St Kitts, the, 44, 45, 87, 306

St. Augustine’s School, 9, 10

Staff Training, 56, 69, 70, 71, 74, 79, 142, 144, 164, 207, 283, 378, 381, 393, 455

Stanford University, 68

Stanley, Brett, 26

Stanley, Ellen 'Nellie', 26, 111, 297, 299, 300, 301, 328, 334, 335, 336, 403, 425

Starsky and Hutch, 122

Stephenson, Reverend Thomas Bowman, 497

Stockwell, 497

Sturman, Jim, 264

Sub19, 54, 55, 56, 58, 68, 69, 70, 73, 74, 79, 80, 144, 164, 207, 283, 356, 378, 379, 393

Surrey Comet, the, 45

surveillance, 94, 95, 100, 172, 368, 369, 370

Svartvik, Jan, 312

Tavistock, the, 164

Taylor, Lord Justice, 191

Tear, Adrienne, 230, 237, 238, 240, 269

Tear, Victoria, 239, 269

Terry, John, 295

Tete, Ashirifianai 'Ash', 54

The Art of Persuasion, 317

The Beatles, 10

the Horse Dealer’s Daughter, 11

Thompson, Peter, 90, 115, 221, 324, 327, 406

Tilney All Saints, 4

TOIL (Time Off In Lieu), 70, 71, 144

transference, 32, 309

Trefny, Marek, 227

trial bundle, 242, 295

Tunn, Jason DS, 122, 123, 125, 126, 128, 146, 148, 149, 150, 151, 158, 199, 202, 203, 215, 279, 284, 287, 349, 359, 365, 367, 368, 369, 370, 371, 372, 373, 374, 375, 376, 377, 382, 389, 400, 429, 443, 484, 485

Twist, Cathy, 22, 23, 24, 67, 97, 138, 382

Twitter, 28

University of Greenwich, the, 22, 226

Vaz, Rosa, 14, 16, 17

Victim Support, 181

Victoria Embankment, the, 67, 82, 99

Vine, Jeremy, 273

Walker, Maya, 56, 57, 69, 70, 73, 79, 84, 110, 111, 114, 115, 116, 119, 120, 121, 122, 132, 133, 135, 137, 140, 144, 160, 166, 167, 168, 169, 173, 174, 175, 179, 180, 181, 186, 190, 207, 212, 226, 227, 228, 237, 244, 269, 270, 274, 328, 335, 336, 337, 340, 344, 355, 356, 358, 372, 378, 387, 396, 402, 403, 410, 423, 427

Wallace, Marjorie, 264

Warren Commission, the, 25, 35

Warrener, Joanne, 226, 288

Waters, Ermina. See Waters, Paul

Waters, Paul, 20

Waters, Sister Beaulah, 47

Watkins, Lord Justice, 192

Weise, Marcia, 125, 126, 144, 199, 204, 222, 323, 327, 410, 432, 455

Weisse, Marcia, 130, 170, 202, 209, 280, 325, 382, 420

Westcott, Terry, 116

Whipsnade Zoo, 35, 69

White Bear Theatre, 11, 20, 328

White, Richard, 226

Whitefield School, 11

Wikipedia, 283, 284, 285, 289

Woolwich Crown Court, 160, 163, 165, 166, 173, 174, 217, 221, 271, 288, 296, 331, 440, 468

Working with Survivors of Abuse, 41

Worton, Darren, 226

www.allaroundjustice.com, 243

www.duedil.com, 278

Yalom, Irvin, 56, 68

Young, Julian, 271, 274

Yўlmaz, Ipek, 11, 20

Zapata Explorer, the, 45

THE TRUTH ABOUT BRIAN PEAD - PART TWENTY SEVEN

53

Afterword 2

On Monday 20 May 2013, the BBC Panorama programme ‘Hillsborough – How They Buried the Truth’ went out at 9pm. Brian Pead sat and watched it with a friend – he cried. The tears were not just for the death of 96 innocent people, but for the death of justice. His tears were also for his grand-children. For his daughter. For the life he once knew. Brian’s tears of sadness were also tears of anger – at the institutionalised corruption that had taken place in the cover-up that was Hillsborough.

As a Liverpool fan and author of five books on the entire history of the club from 1892, he was present on that fateful day. He had lived with the corruption for almost a quarter of a century.

On Wednesday 22 May 2013, Brian came across a piece of writing by the Radio 5Live presenter, Colin Murray, in the Metro newspaper on his train journey from Southend Central to the Royal Courts of Justice, to seek remedy against Lambeth Council for his unlawful dismissal in July 2007.

The words touched Brian immensely. We reproduce them here, and acknowledge the copyright of both Colin Murray and the Metro newspaper:

“… I didn’t watch it, not initially. I’d had a good day and I knew that would end the minute this programme began, so instead I enjoyed dinner with my family, took in a film, and only pressed play once those I love were safely in bed.

Now I sit here, at 3am, after viewing BBC Panorama’s ‘Hillsborough - How They Buried The Truth’, and I can’t think about anything else. Again. Quite honestly, I’m thinking about what it would be like if my wife went out tomorrow and never came back. And if for almost a quarter of a century to follow I’d have her memory spat upon and besmirched by those in positions of power who are meant to protect us and uphold our collective principles. And I just want to punch the wall in anger.

I’m thinking about how any human being can look at a pitch strewn with the dead, the dying and the wounded, a nearby temporary morgue filling up with bodies, and already be hatching a plan to pin the blame on those very same corpses in order to save their own skin.

I’m thinking that anyone who can do this must have no soul to speak of, and no conscience to answer. I’m thinking about those left behind, and how they’ve managed to not only keep fighting for justice, but have done so without lowering themselves to the same gutter level as those who have denied them the right to bury their loved ones with dignity and in peace.

And I am not sure I would be able to summon the grace they possess, or be able to show the self-restraint they’ve displayed.

I’m thinking about how my words cannot even begin to describe the suffering felt by those who lost friends and family that day, and I wonder where they’ve found the courage to continue in the face of such despicable lies. I’m not sure I could have.

I’m thinking, with two inquiries charged with finally unearthing the real story of the worst day in the history of British football, that I don’t want to ever have to watch a programme like this week’s Panorama again.

That I want to stand in front of the Hillsborough memorial at Anfield in the near future and touch it in the knowledge that, at last, the truth has been written forever in history, and not to walk away from it knowing those who caused this avoidable tragedy continue to get away with it scot free.

I’m hoping that the bastards responsible are having as much trouble sleeping tonight as I am…”

© Colin Murray                     © The Metro

Brian Pead innocently went to work one day and sacked a female teacher who was grooming girls. As innocent as going to a football match.

A part of him died the day he was unlawfully sacked by Lambeth Council.

A part of him died the day he no longer saw his daughter.

A part of him died the day he no longer saw his grand-children.

A part of him died the day his father died and the police considered charging Brian with his father’s death – despite the 91 year old dying of natural causes.

A part of him died the day he buried his father and no other family members were present because of the lies perpetrated by the police at the highest levels and because the police had intercepted the invitations to his daughter and nephews to attend their grand-father’s funeral.

A part of him died when his reputation was besmirched by those in positions of power who are meant to protect us and uphold our collective principles.

A part of him died as he fought to get the truth to his beloved grand-children.

A part of him died when he learnt that Scotland Yard had been hatching a plan to prevent him from exposing child abuse in Lambeth.

A part of him died with the pain and the suffering of the loss of his loved ones.

A part of him died with the knowledge that those responsible for his demise are attempting to re-write history and are getting away with it scot free.

Parts of him died until there was just one part left …

… the part that fought tenaciously to be heard amidst the injustice and the lies and the corruption and the scandal and the defamation and the stench of evil …

… the part that said, “I know that I am innocent. And I want to stand and look in my grand-children’s eyes and know that the truth has at last been told to them.”

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Afterword 3

On Wednesday 12 June 2013, Brian travelled to Ambrose Lane, Harpenden in Hertfordshire with Michael Bird, the co-author of from Hillsborough to Lambeth. It was a warm and bright day, though occasional clouds passed silently in front of the yellow-orange sun.

Now owned by the Christian charity Youth with a Mission, the National Children’s Home at Highfield Oval in Harpenden today looks very much as it did in the 1950s. Large Edwardian houses had been built around a green. Forming part of the circle of buildings around the green were a small factory, an administrative block, a chapel - built with funds from Joseph Rank - and a hospital.  Born in 1854, Joseph Rank was the founder Rank Hovis McDougall, one of the United Kingdom’s largest food production and flour-milling businesses.

Like Livingstone and Stanley, Brian and his friend went exploring. Behind one of the houses was a small orchard, where Brian would often wander as a child and where he believes he found his love of nature. To the left of the orchard was a large grassy field where he and Michael Bird walked before entering the wood where Brian would also wander half a century ago. The woods resonated with bird-song and Brian’s heart was filled with joy at such a “beautiful cacophony” - as he describes it.

Emerging from the bluebell-carpeted woods where the sun illuminated the gossamer-thin yellow-green leaves, they went from house to house in the warm sunshine and were intrigued by the foundation stones they saw on each building. It appeared that the majority had been laid on Wednesday 30 October 1912 at a grand ceremony in which local dignitaries and officials of the National Children’s Homes had been present.

Brian and his two brothers were admitted into the Harpenden branch of the National Children’s Home on 29 January 1956. Brian was aged 2½.

For what was termed ‘medical research’ reasons, the children in the home were photographed. From the front. From the side. From the rear.

Naked.

In his book, Philip: A Strange Child, Dalkeith Publishing, 2007, Philip Howard describes his experiences of the ‘medical research’:

“…Our regular visits for the Growth Study Tests every few months were welcomed by most of us. An entire morning off school was something of a treat. The tests took about two hours. There were not that many of us in each group, but as we were all seen individually, although there were several staff involved, much of the time was waiting to be seen.

The tests took place in one part of the main hall; this part of the hall was kept locked, other than on the days of the medical tests, because of the specialised medical equipment used only for our measurement tests. […]

As well as our measurements, photographs of our body stature and growth were taken from our front, back and side. These were done naked […]

If a few of us were embarrassed at times, it was when the staff touched parts of our body during the tests. When it came to standing up for the photographs, on occasions a few of us experienced erections.

With the others occupied with their own part of the test, it was generally only the staff that witnessed our embarrassment…”

As authors and researchers, we found this account highly disturbing. Without any melodrama whatsoever, we were forced to ask many questions about this ‘medical research’. Why were the children photographed naked? What happened to these photographs of the naked children? Where are they currently stored? Who owns them? Why was each child seen ‘individually’? Why did staff touch parts of the children’s bodies when they were naked?

Why were parents not informed? Why were parents not present? Did parents give consent to have their children photographed naked? Were parents given a copy of the photographs?

Who authorised the taking of naked pictures of pre-pubescent and pubescent children? Had authority been given at the level of the Committee of the National Children’s Home, the Education Authority, or Ministerial level?

How many pairs of eyes saw these photographs? Was this ‘medical research’ merely a cover for child pornography some 40 or 50 years before the internet existed?     

Back in July 1956, Brian was 3ft 2 inches tall and he weighed 2 stone and 6 lbs. The file that he obtained in a Freedom of Information Act 2000 request from Action for Children contained a comprehensive list of his height and weight measurements throughout his stay in the Harpenden home.

At the age of 5, Brian’s sexual abuse at Highfield Oval started. His childhood had been stolen from him and his awareness had been raised to a state of high alert – he saw things most boys his age did not see, he felt things they did not feel, he knew things they did not know. This boy ‘of superior intelligence’ who ‘could be reasoned with’, who was ‘ clean and tidy for his age’, who was a ‘leader’ and who was ‘popular with his peers’ (all comments made about him in the Home) was 3ft 7½ inches tall and he weighed 3 stone in July 1958, a month after his fifth birthday.

The foundation stones had been laid in 1912 approximately 3 feet from ground level.

It is evident that Brian’s eye level was in line with the foundation stones.

On each of the foundation stones were the names of people who were associated in one way or another with the National Children’s Homes.

On each of the foundation stones were the names of the places that the people who were associated with the National Children’s Homes came from.

On almost every one of the foundation stones was the name of …

… Lambeth.

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On 27 January 2010, Brian attended Southwark Crown Court with his friend Geoffrey Bacon. Brian had prepared an overnight bag for prison. He was determined that he would rather go to prison than say that he was guilty of an offence he knew himself to be innocent of.

The indefatigable Geoffrey Bacon sat impassively in the public gallery. He had shown himself to be a true friend. He was upset that Brian had been found guilty of an offence he knew his friend to be innocent of, and he was also upset that he had not been called as a witness.

Brian was not sentenced to prison, but was served with a Sexual Offences Prevention Order (or SOPO).

This Order was somewhat comical in reality. Brian was ordered not to seek the company of any young person under the age of 16. (He never did seek such company).

It was ordered that he could not visit, reside or spend the night in a dwelling where an unsupervised person under the age of 16 [excepting grand-children] lives, unless authorised by a Police Officer from the relevant Public Protection Unit.

It was ordered that he must not seek any work – paid or unpaid – which would bring him into contact with under-16s.

It was ordered that he must not use any computer or similar device for accessing the Internet in order to access chat rooms, send instant messages or file swapping, except for the purpose of employment.

It was ordered that he must not seek employment using any other name than Brian Pead.

He was placed on Probation and told that he must attend weekly counselling sessions in London and be placed on a sex offenders’ treatment programme.

Brian refused to attend such a programme. They wanted to video him. He said he is not a sex offender and that any videoing of him would be a breach of his human rights. He informed Probation about police corruption. They did nothing.

Until 31 August 2011 when he had sent out numerous letters to the Prime Minister, the Director of Public Prosecutions, the Minister for Justice, the Home Secretary, the Lord Chief Justice, all the justices of the Supreme Court and their ilk.

On that night eight police officers and five vehicles surrounded his house, climbing on the back roof of his house, smashing down his back door with a sledgehammer and arrested him because he failed to attend probation immediately after his father had died.

Our account ends here - almost. The third part of this intriguing trilogy can be found in Emily Birch Went to Church. This true crime account tells the gripping story of how Emily Birch was used as a decoy to get her grand-father in prison, where Brian’s cellmate was none other than celebrity gangster, Dave Courtney. The two men had a lot to discuss. Brian had been held on remand of the witness intimidation of his own grand-daughter, who had never been a witness in any trial. The evil perpetrators of the Hillsborough cover-up were continuing to pervert the course of justice in an attempt to prevent Brian Pead from speaking out ...

But now we come to the final piece of this particular jigsaw. Each Court keeps a register of cases, as you might expect. There is no record for the ‘trial’ in which Brian Pead found himself. It was, as you may have already suspected, just smoke and mirrors designed to prevent him from revealing the truth about child abuse in Lambeth.

The page opposite shows the trials that Loraine-Smith was involved in. Note that on 4 November 2009 he presided over R. v Stephen Smithey and on 12 March 2010 he presided over R. v Denise Bohannan.

There is no mention of Brian Pead’s trial which commenced on 14 December 2009. His book from Hillsborough to Lambeth was the subject of two gagging orders against it. The website www.allaroundjustice.com which highlighted the police corruption in this trial was taken down unlawfully by the Government.

The website http://lambethchildabuseandcoverup.com was also unlawfully removed from the internet, despite being hosted in Slovakia, which is outside of the jurisdiction of the Courts of England and Wales.

Brian Pead was, and is, an innocent man.

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Afterword 1

On Valentine’s Day (February 14) 2013, Brian travelled to the National Children’s Home offices in Hackford Road, Stockwell, London. The charity had been re-named Action for Children. Brian was seeking his file for the five years he spent in the home.

His file was an informative document and he was able to take it away with him. It raised more questions for him than it answered.

He was not allowed access to the files belonging to his brothers, even though Action for Children claim that anybody can access these files in the name of research.

His own file contained no photographs and yet he knew that it ought to have done. Certain names and paragraphs had been redacted from certain documents. He had, in September 2012, been studying the redacted files on the Hillsborough website and he formed the view that redaction is usually used to ‘hide’ information. Sometimes this is because some people, for example, do not wish for their name and/ or address to be made available to the world, but on other occasions it is because those in authority have something to hide from the world.

In 1869, the Reverend Thomas Bowman Stephenson, together with Francis Horner and Alfred Mager, founded a children’s home for orphans and abandoned children in a disused stable in Lambeth.

In 1871, the Lambeth home was given approval by the Wesleyan Methodist Conference and moved to Bonner Road in Hackney.

In 1913 a new branch was opened at Harpenden and it was possible to transfer the whole community of 350 children from London to this new flagship branch.

Hackford Road, Stockwell, by the way, is in the London Borough of Lambeth.

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Brian walked back into the dock behind the glass and with a Serco guard present, the jury filed in.

Judge:        How do you find the defendant, guilty or not guilty of the                        charge of exposure?

Foreman:   Not Guilty.

Judge:        And how do you find the defendant, guilty or not guilty on                      the charge of incitement?

Foreman:   Guilty.

Judge:        And by what margin?

Foreman:   By 10 to 2.

The jury was thanked for ‘all their hard work’ and they filed out. Brian tried to make eye contact with them, but only two did so. Were these the two who knew him to be innocent?

The judge looked directly at Brian: “If you appeal, you will go to prison. If you continue to deny Count 2, I will send you to prison.”

Did you notice the less-than-veiled threat to Brian? It was bad enough, we believe, that Brian had been convicted of a charge which he could not be guilty of and – we believe – he had been convicted because of what Marcia Weise told him on 4 June 2008 (18 months previously!) : “You have out-stung a police sting operation and they will be out to get you.”

They had got him. He had been outmanoeuvred at every possible turn. Witnesses were not called. Witness statements were not signed. Trials had been collapsed. Disclosure had not been met. Perjury had been committed but not investigated. The criminal procedure rulebook had been thrown out along with the concept of British justice.

In trying to placate the angry Brian, Loraine-Smith said the following on the public record:

“…You didn’t turn up at Southwark to have a meeting. That is powerful mitigation. A non-custodial sentence would be conditional that you embark upon a treatment programme for sex abusers. If you continue to fight this claim, I will be forced to commit you to prison…”

We regard that as not only an improper threat by a Crown Court judge, but also a breach of Brian’s human rights. Any person has the inalienable right to continue to claim that they are innocent without being threatened with prison.

Outside, Brian discussed with Bell what had transpired inside the court room and particularly the grounds of appeal because Brian was still going to appeal, despite the threats made by Loraine-Smith.

Bell said, “He should have discharged the Jury because Count 1 was not guilty. He should have removed Count 1 and discharged the jury. The grounds of appeal are takeable. Pay close regard to what the Judge has said – he will send you to prison if you maintain your innocence. Your PLJ stays with the Prosecution. You must return here on 27 January 2010 for sentencing. You have 28 days from today to lodge an appeal, though you can appeal out of time up to a week late.”

Brian left the Court both angry and disconsolate. He had wanted to be acquitted on both counts because he knew himself to be innocent of both charges and because he wanted to speak with his daughter again and to hug his grand-children again; look into their eyes and see their souls; see their innocent smiles and hear their voices and learn about their dreams and their disappointments.

It had not been lost on Brian that the ‘verdict’ had arrived just before the doors were being closed for the Christmas break. It seemed to him – as it does to us – that this had been ‘stage-managed’ all along, just as it had been at Woolwich Crown Court in February 2009, and just at it had been at the Employment Tribunal when he took Lambeth Council to court in March 2008 for wrongful dismissal.

Brian began calling his friends. At 6.41pm he called Michael Bird who was in Prospect Close, Southend, Essex.

Brian: Hi Michael, I’m just calling to let you know the verdict.

Michael: Great! Not Guilty I take it?

Brian: No. On the Exposure case, not guilty ... on the Incitement case, Guilty by 10-2.

Michael: [Silence] No fucking way! That’s impossible. The Judge clearly said to the jurors that you could not be found guilty because there was no victim. That woman juror even asked him the question, “Are you saying that if there is no victim, then we can’t find him guilty?” and he said, “Yes, that is exactly what I’m saying.”

Brian: Well, it gets worse. When I return for sentencing on 27 January [2010], they said I must sign the Sex Offenders’ Register. The judge said that he would send me to jail if I continued to protest my innocence.

Michael: Under no circumstances must you sign that register, regardless if they send you to prison for years, you never sign to say you did something that you didn’t do.  It’s irreversible once you’ve signed and said you’re guilty.

Brian: Well, I am innocent, so I’m not gonna sign it. 

Michael: Brian, this will be a turning point in your life. If you do say you’re guilty just to stay out of prison, you will never be able to prove your innocence. But if you stick to your guns now, however difficult they may make it for you, you will always be able to look at yourself in the mirror.

Brian: Well, I want to be able to look at my grand-children and get the truth to them. I’m gonna write a letter to my daughter and put it through their letterbox tomorrow. As you know, my grand-children mean everything to me and they have to learn the truth. Whatever their parents have told them, it must be lies. I want them to grow up with the truth, not with lies.

Michael: Well, let them bring it on. It’s gonna be hard for you, but let them bring it on.

Brian: Ok. Well, I’ll call you again over Christmas. Take care, bye.

Michael: Yeah, good luck, bye.

 Between 23 December 2009 and 17 January 2010, Brian did not hear a word from either Dominic Bell or Angela Shaw. This is not only unprofessional, but also incredibly disrespectful. Whilst Brian had sacked Bell during the trial, there is no reason why Angela Shaw (of AA Mirsons) should not have contacted her client.

Brian felt strongly that corruption had taken place and we agree with that conclusion based on the evidence we have seen and our knowledge of his character.

He called Angela Shaw on 17 January and a meeting was arranged between her, Brian and Bell at Charter Chambers in John Street, London.

Brian secretly recorded the meeting. We believe that it shows that Bell was not ‘playing with a straight bat’ and that he was wholly negligent in his handling of this case to Brian’s detriment. We leave you, the reader, to reach your own conclusion.

The meeting commenced at 5.30pm. Note the time: it suggests that the meeting – held at the end of a day – was merely ‘fitted in’. A proper meeting had not been scheduled.

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Wednesday 23 December 2009

Brian arrived at Pret at 7.20am! Although he had left a good deal of time because of the inclement weather, the trains were running virtually normally, although they were practically empty.

In Pret, he asked an assistant behind the counter to turn the raucous music down, which she did.

There were four other cases in Court 4 that day. At 09:50, DC Godfrey entered court and Forster arrived five minutes later. But there was no sign of Bell. He had been late to Court on every single occasion during this trial.

Eventually, all were present and Forster asked Loraine-Smith a critical question: “Is the Lambeth incident – the masturbation in the theatre – in the PLJ for the jury? They either get the PLJ in its entirety or they do not.”

Judge: That entry re Lambeth would prejudice the defendant’s case.

Forster and Bell make a show of looking through Brian’s PLJ, while Godfrey, who has numerous files in front of her, sits doing nothing.

Forster: Leave out the Employment Tribunal and the 19 January 2008. I’ll get it all hole-punched.

Bell: The Lambeth bit must come out.

Forster: It’s impossible to work out. If I wanted to take a hard line, I’d say the defendant put it in on purpose.

DC Godfrey sat throughout this exercise doodling on a legal pad in front of her. Bell continued to sort out extracts from the PLJ – reading out certain dates.

This was yet another sleight of hand. The entries in Brian’s personal learning journal about Lambeth Council contained information about his exposing child grooming in a pupil referral unit that he managed. (Authors’ note: A full account of this can be found in the book from Hillsborough to Lambeth by Brian Pead and Michael Bird, Invenire Press, 2012. The book was banned by Justice Michael Tugendhat on 1 February 2013, along with the website <lambethchildabuseandcoverup.com>. On 16 July 2013, Caroline Addy, counsel for Lambeth, asked for a permanent gagging order on Brian Pead.)

Judge: I am concerned that some matters were private for the defendant and other people. I will have to direct the jury about the PLJ.

At 10:17am the jury entered Court 4.

Judge: I said you could have the PLJ but it concerns me. The defendant has written private information about other people. It seems to me that the original pages can be seen by the jury, but not the entire document because of confidentiality issues.

Yet another sleight of hand. In order to convince a jury that there would be missing pages from the PLJ, the judge tries to claim that this is because of issues with confidentiality. It was nothing of the sort. The prosecution, defence counsel and the judge all knew that the pages Brian had written about the unlawful seizure of Geoffrey Bacon’s computer were critical pages, just as were the pages he had written about telling the ‘girl’ to fuck off in front of Geoffrey Bacon. It was never mentioned in Court that Geoffrey Bacon was present when Brian typed: “You are a fake – fuck off!”

Furthermore, Brian had written about child abuse in Lambeth and that had been removed in another unlawful move in a farcical trial.

It is our considered opinion, based on incontrovertible evidence (the provenance of which is not in any doubt) that there was connivance between the prosecutor, the defence and the judge to ensure that certain pages would not be included in the PLJ shown to the jury because, with them included in the document, there was irrefutable evidence of Brian’s innocence.   

At 10:22am Brian went to the canteen on the first floor. We are grateful to Brian for permission to reproduce extracts from his personal court diary. We think it makes for profound reading and provides yet another insight into the mind of a man with a passion for detail and for justice:

“…How do I feel?

I feel nervous. Scared. I believe it’s because I feel I have no control over the process. At this point, I’ve done all I can and it’s now in the hands of others. That’s a feeling I hate, because other people, 12 others, who have fought through rain and snow and ice to attend every day for 8 working days, are going to pronounce 2 judgments on me, yet I firmly believe that all of the facts have not been heard in both my cases.

I did not sleep well last night, even though I ‘tried’ to relax. I woke around midnight and struggled thereafter to sleep. I cried for my lost daughter – how can it be that she failed to support me at this critical time in my life? Of course I will have made mistakes with her – as all parents do – but hardly to warrant her deserting me in my hour of need. Did she hate me that much? Was my parenting that bad?

And I cried for Emily and Lauren and little Joe. I miss them all so much. I wish Sorrel had brought them with her to my trial – I need my family around me, but they are nowhere to be seen thanks, no doubt, to the police disinformation and to social services, the SS.

I felt that I let little Brian down. Dominic Bell advised me not to confuse the jury with info about my own CSA, so – on his advice – I did not mention little Brian 50 years ago. But I should have mentioned it!

AdultBrian feels that he’s let down ChildBrian. Why do I feel this?

10:30am      

Principally, because for the past 18 months, I have been acutely aware that the charges have emanated from little Brian’s abuse.

That abuse was the trigger for whatever happened in my life thereafter. That abuse has led me into court half a century later.

I have been feeling that I’ve let little Brian down, but I have just had a realisation that perhaps the universe’s plan was for me to feel all the guilt and shame again personally (after my two arrests) and then expiate that guilt and shame in public with two verdicts going my way. I do hope so.

10:35am

I am nervous though. I have tried all week to feel how the jury is going; how they’re feeling towards me. But it’s incredibly difficult.

Staying with this AdultBrian letting down ChildBrian feeling, I’m feeling perhaps I may be wrong.

Intellectually, I think I let him down, but emotionally I believe I kept my composure under the most intense pressure and gave a reasonable and honest account of myself and my life.

Intellectually, I may have let ChildBrian down by not remembering every last detail that I feel aggrieved that the jury haven’t heard, but emotionally I kept composed. Forster tried to unsettle me several times, of course.

Kirsty said that when she looked through the glass door into Court 4, that I looked relaxed, putting on my glasses, taking them off etc.

Truth is, I did feel relaxed most of the time. If you speak from the heart, from a truthful place, how can you not feel relaxed?

10:44am

And now I’m starting to feel that AdultBrian did not – after all – let ChildBrian down 50 years later. Maybe, I actually did a good job after all. Perhaps I should stop beating my Adult self up and start acknowledging the role I took on the stand.

The judge said something about not accepting a verdict between 1 and 2pm, so presumably I can leave the court then but I have to stay in court at all other times.

Julia Godfrey looked pissed off today – almost bored, resigned.

10:48am

Three guys have just walked into the canteen and sat down and are discussing their case. They don’t look like police.

I wish I had someone with me today. John told me last night that he won’t come today because he’s so tired. I fully understand.

I’ve just texted Kirsty and she’s working from home today. Pity.

Michael is, of course, busy at home with his kids etc.

However, perhaps this is something I need to face alone, for ChildBrian’s sake. Perhaps this is what the universe has decreed – that ChildBrian should face all that crap (the allegations) and face his verdicts alone.

ChildBrian was alone in his bed that night.

ChildBrian is not alone today, actually. Today, he has AdultBrian with him.

11:40am

Been doing crosswords and sodoku to keep my mind off the subject.  Still lots of nerves bubbling away under the surface.

12:03pm      

Still doing sodokus.

12:15pm       

Sodokus.

Jury still out.

12.35pm       

Just finished all three sodokus in The Independent. I think they labelled the ‘Advanced’ one in error because I raced through it.

Received a text from John, wishing me luck.

12:40pm      

I went for a pee.

I noted that my nervousness is NOT my nervousness. It’s projection from others. I am innocent of all charges and my authentic self is relaxed.

12:48pm      

I texted the above to Michael.

I don’t know if the judge will call the jury back in before lunch, or ask them back in straight after lunch to see if they have reached a verdict.

12:55pm       

I went back to Court 4, where I was told to remain in the building even during lunch!

1:00pm        

I went back to the canteen. Sausage, bacon, beans and tea cost £3.55! I could eat for two days on that!

2:00pm

I went to Court 4 – lots of personnel outside on another case.

2:02pm

I returned to the restaurant. An argument between a male and female worker in back kitchen. “Janet, I need you please,” I heard.

2:04pm

Called back into Court 4.

[The tall, bearded journalist enters Court 4. Talking to the police. New Serco guard in the box alongside me.]

2:15pm

Some confusion. Forster is apparently on his feet in another court.

DB went out; said he’d meet me in 10 minutes.

I wait outside court.

2:17pm

all back into Court.

       Forster in; Bell in.

       Other personnel for next case all in place.

       Forster reading notes on next case…”

At 2:20pm, the jury returned. The foreman of the jury said that no verdict had been reached on either Count. At this point Loraine-Smith said that he would accept at least a 10:2 majority verdict.

At 2:22pm, outside Court 4, Bell explained to Brian that if there is no decision today, the jury cannot return tomorrow because the Court is closed and there is no security. “In this event, the judge would discharge the jury and there would have to be a re-trial.”

Back to Brian’s personal court diary:

“…DB had said in Court it would have to be up to the CPS to decide whether they would press charges again.

DB said he’d meet me here in the canteen later and left.

2:30-2:35pm

I sent updates on the above to Michael, Kirsty, John and Geoff.

2:37              

Geoff texted me. A good friend.

2:38 – 3:00pm

Kirsty called me and chatted. What a fantastic person she is.

3:00pm        

Client ‘Donna’, 26, texted me and asked for a session at 3pm tomorrow.

3:04             

John Callow texted with the view that “it’s all going as expected.”

3:10              

It seems that all the canteen staff have gone home.

There is calm, quiet and peace in the canteen as I read the paper.

My only fear now is that the jury have been rushed.

3:15              

Forster and Bell are in new courts doing their thing for other people like me. How many of them are innocent, too?

I recognise that I am just a cog – just a name, just another client. Truth, reality, justice etc don’t appear to count here, but it’s a Kafka-esque process that I find myself involved in.

3:25              

Been for a pee.

A guard took some food out – for my jury?

It’s getting close to 4pm. Obviously I’m nervous, but I stood facing the Thames just now and asked the Universe, Mother and Bob for help.

3:36             

Called to Court 4…”

Bob referred, of course, to Brian’s brother – Robert – who died in 1972 after his skull was fractured on board a Lowestoft trawler. The tragic death of his brother, at the age of 21, had led to Brian’s first piece of investigation when he went undercover to work on board a trawler himself in order to investigate his brother’s accident.

His mother had died in 1997 and the Oregonian lawyer who created her will, David Barber, was then struck off for financial mismanagement and corrupt practices. Brian felt that it was no coincidence that these people and these thoughts were flooding through his mind as he began to walk back to Court 4.